Do you ever feel like life is getting away from you? That there are thousands of things to do but all you can do is sit there and let them need to be done?
The last couple of months have turned my life upside down, even though I know this is where we're supposed to be. My husband and I changed jobs - he's working from home now and I'm just at home. Our house no longer fits our needs, so although we love the location and the setting, we've had a for sale sign out for a few months now...(anyone looking for a lovely little cottage in Northern Ontario??) And that means moving will likely be in our near future. Packing and cleaning and decluttering, and then unpacking and cleaning and decluttering. I know that change is good and necessary and that the Lord blesses those times of intensity, but it doesn't make the time any easier to get through.
I feel as though I undo more than I do.
I feel as though my words are wooden, and therefore have no desire or energy to write them.
What I was once passionate about, I just feel…meh.
I'm tired and wrung out and don't know where to go next.
Everything in me just screams to "muscle through", to "pull up my bootstraps" and make "it" happen, but I can't. I don't know what "it" is. So I do laundry. And the dishes. And then I do laundry again. And I pray like the dickens that things will become clear.
So for you, my dear reader, have patience. Perhaps I will come back here to share more thoughts, or perhaps this site will change and grow into something different. Either way you are all in my thoughts and prayers as you go about your daily lives. I will leave you with something I wrote a couple months ago:
"Times of transition are times of hope and promise. They're opportunities for us to remember and recall to our minds the glory of the Lord and his promises to us. They're times of sadness and grief as we say goodbye to one good, and joy and anticipation as we say hello to another. They're exhausting times - oh so tiring - as the mind reels with the possible, the probable and the needed. Hopefully all three will intersect in the near future…"