October 9, 2013
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I am a person who believes in efficiency and 'the best way' of doing things. This has resulted in many burned suppers as I would be vacuuming while also frying potatoes. That is not such an efficient approach after all, as it turns out.

That has always been my way. I struggle to be present in the moment because I'm multitasking with the next moment and borrowing from tomorrow's worries. Though I am aware of missing out on enjoyment, though I know I'm not doing any one thing really well, and though unexpected opportunities pass me by, I hold pretty firmly to my MO of (in)efficiently ruining my suppers.



Some of you may know my situation: I live in a place I call SOHOE – a slice of heaven on earth. I work at the library just down the road. I'm able to get by on part time hours because I live simply, and use my down time to recover (an introvert working with the public can have messy results without sufficient down time!) and write. This is all – every bit of it – a direct answer to a very specific prayer. Surely there cannot be anyone else as blessed as I am?
Photo: Olga Everaert
You'd think I'd be reveling, exalting in my circumstance. I had all I'd asked for. And I would be if I were other than who I am. Sadly, I instead found myself squandering months of this gift through my old propensities of rushing and worrying. When I wasn't at work I'd either fritter my time away, or put my head down and plow through my duties as quickly as possible, fretting over the to do list, not seeing the wonderfulness around me.

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Fortunately I did eventually wake up. It happened at the height of the growing season here, when everywhere I looked revealed life bursting on vines and in trees and fields. It was all so beautiful I wanted to weep in appreciation that I am here to witness it. This is what I've been given and it deserves attention.

I don't work on Mondays. Before 'the awakening' I would essentially squander the day, even if I got a good amount of work done, because I wasn't attentive to the little moments. When I realized that tomorrow is not a guarantee, that I don't know how long I will be privileged to live here, I decided to soak up those moments, be properly appreciative, take advantage of the opportunities I have.

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So now I am doing things I'd often said I would do 'one day'. Instead of driving past a country lane, wondering where it goes, I take the time to explore, visiting a farm shop I heard about, spending a quiet hour on the pier, or taking the scenic route instead of the highway. None of it is extravagant as I haven't the money – or the taste – for extravagance, but they are the sorts of things I get great enjoyment from, and give peace to my spirit. 

I'm trying to be attentive to the gift I've been given, and it has brought me such contentment.

I am living my Mondays.

9 comments:

  1. this is so beautiful.. you are a child of the moment..

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  2. You are really blessed I live somewhat out in the country so I know what a great gift the outdoors can be to the spiritual life also being holy in our individual state of life I think is shown to us through natures beauty. Looks like you have a really beautiful place there thanks be to God.

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  3. Thank you, Anon - one day at a time!

    Matthew, amen! The beauty of nature is such a blessing, and I count myself blessed indeed to be here.

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    1. Blessed indeed. I had sent you a couple of emails telling you how great I thought yalls work was here I dont know if you got them I dont reckon it matters. Glad to see you doing so much for the Lord with your vocation!

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  4. No, Matthew, we haven't received your emails, which is a shame 'cause we always love to get affirmation!
    You wouldn't happen to live in NC, would you?

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  5. That is a shame lol. Yeah NC. I had to try and find your authentic fem site (hopin you didnt mind) although you did say I could read your stuff. Blame google anyway so I did that google thing and thanks be to God I did. What a great work the Lord has begun with yall. Putting thoughts into words aint easy Lord knows ive tried.

    I did actually sit down and put my conversion story down for you and anybody else of course. You had asked if me if would be wiilng to do that and im glad I actually did I reckoned it a good thing for me something I had never done. Anyway glad to speak with you keep up the good work for sure keep you in my prayers. God bless you Tess.

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  6. Good to hear from you, Matthew. Glad you've put your story in writing; I've been patiently waiting to read it.
    Where did you send your email? We're at thefemininegift@gmail.com. If you like, please write again.

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  7. That is a wonderful gift, and something I will have to remember if I am ever able to work part-time, which has always been a dream of mine. Actually it is something I need to remmeber even now, in the midst of the busyness of life...to appreciate the moment. ...I can relate to the too much multi-tasking: we had the fire dept. here last week because I was not watching the frying pan on the stove. The book "One Thousand Gifts" has really helped me be thankful for each moment.

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    1. Oh Marty Beth! I'm sorry, but I laughed (mostly in sympathy) at the fire department. My neighbours could always tell when I was trying to cook something because the smoke detector would go off. Sheesh. A girl's not left with much dignity after that!
      I've heard such a lot about 'One thousand gifts'. It's on my list of books I hope to read one day. Even working only part time, there are not enough hours in a day for all the reading there is to do!

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